quinta-feira, 31 de março de 2011

The unspokable tale of you (part I)

A long, long time ago...In a far, far away place, only known as Here, the events which I'm going to tell you took place.
This is the story of a man, and such story had never been told before for the cruel strenght of its components, or is it this the real reason? Anyhow, I think the real reason will speak for itself.
It was a shining sunny day, but that was miles away from where Polianna was, above the clouds that cast a gigantic shadow upon him.
There, shadow and the red dirty soil which rose as a red mist, as thick as it could be, still.
What was he doing there he could not tell. The last thing Polianna remembers was being in his apartament, with a computerly controled weather and which was always sunny with the bluest skies there is (if there is such in fact) and very few clouds traveling around, every once and then.
But now he was standing there, over a hard, brutal land with no landscape, so what could he do, but walk?
As he was striding down, along the pathless direction there was, he started thinking that even if he knew where he was going, would he really know where to go? Where could he return to?
A lousy job, which he hated?
A mediocre life in a safe building and neighborhood?
Or the few people who would miss him? The three or four of them? Or maybe two.
And among these people, for sure his girlfriend, Alice, was not included, for in fact, the day he had gone was the happiest of her life, for his vanishment was more than a relief, it was a work saver for her.
He did not disbelieve that she would cry for his departure for a couple of days, time enough to seek comfort in the arms of someone else. Maybe his friend: Freddy, who had always had eyes for Alice. But let that be, for in the red mist he was, that did not matter, at all.
His mother would surely miss him, for now and maybe the remaining days of her life, unfortunatly, there were only a handfull, for she suffered from a disease, an illness of the nerves, as the doctors would say, which caused her brain to degenerate indefinetly.
She didn't require him, she had medical assistence in her house, which was paid with the money earned from the life ensurance left from his father, in the event of his early death.
His father had died in a terrible tragedy - an airplane crash, as sudden and brutal as it can be, he left early (that might be the fate of Polianna's family). He would probably miss him too.
It did not make sense one have this kind of thoughts in such a harsh place and so Polianna tryed to concentrate in each step taken (for guilty), but it was too hard, for each step taken would cause such a tremendous pain in both feet. But the thought of stopping was to create a pain even worse, the impression of a soul shattering into million of pieces and getting lost as soon as they entered the thick mist. Maybe it was the survival instinct speaking.
-Eva must miss me!
Polianna thought, for she was such a good friend, they had always got along well, since high school times. She was a person who really cares for a friend and looked after Polianna in several ocasions (But why in such a red mist any of this things would really matter?).
Once they tried to have something, but it didn't work out, it really seemed like they were meant to be just friends. Though most people think not, it's possible for men and women to share this fate.
Maybe Eva was the only one that could really miss him.
- Such suffer, ain't I a terrible friend?

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